This past year has been so difficult. I just keep praying to God that things will get better. Between society's views, a job that I used to love and my ex husband and his new girlfriend and raising MY son, I just feel like my worlds caving in. I adore my son and I will do anything I have to for him and have all along. I am just tired of the arguments and the falsification of information. The fustration is never-ending.
Honestly, I feel like I just want to drive and never stop until the fields are wide and statisfying and the anger fades into resentment. After three years my anger wont fade away. I really loved him. Or who I thought he was. And he SHOULD love our child but leaves him alone with his girlfriend all the time while he drinks his pain away.
I feel like this whole thing is all my fault.
I need change. I need it for me and my son to survive and continue on with our lives so they are satisfying and enriching instead of upsetting and stressful.
Any suggestions?
Probably not..
~Bethany
